Monday, January 2, 2012

Holidays

blah blah blah Here we are again, right? Christmas and New Years and Thanksgiving have passed in a blink. Where the fuck does the time go? I find myself more and more slipping into this crevice of reality where nothing is real and everything around me seems distant or not quite right. I'm not me anymore, or at least not who i thought I was. My own sins have caught up with me I guess, reminded me I'm not half the man I thought i was.

that's a comforting thought, huh?

Sarcasm aside, what is comforting is that I'm not really on the road yet, but by the time I actually am I might not have a chance to post this for lack of internet access, so I'm going to put it here now. I'm still hanging out with Lis and Tia and I wont lie that even though its been hell, with everything thats gone down in the past week, but I've still been glad for the company and distractions for the holidays. Its nice.

Right. Righty right right.

I'd love to stay longer but there are some things irking me that I just can't help but think might feel better if I lfet. No offense to either Lis or Tia, I'm sorry for all the trouble you guys have been put through, I just...need to sort my head out, is all. I need to stop living in nightmares and wandering around ,feeling old pains from those who have gone. Speaking of those who have gone, I cannot imagine the pain most of us must feel for those who have been lost recently. We took a hell of a blow. There's no getting around that. We'll miss all those who are gone, but we must press on.

It's the only thing to do.

It's no fault of you or Tia's, Lis, so stop blaming yourself. And I'd appreciate it if you didn't swat me on the head anymore, please and thank you. Much as I love the attention, you know me, I'm not one for the kinky stuff.

Heh. I'm glad I can at least laugh nowadays. That's a start, anyway.

Peace out,
Shaun

P.S.- those vids from my time in Chicago should be up in a week or so.

EDIT: Also, I'm told theres some sort of post up here on the blog about Scott, but...I can't see it. I've had the thing read aloud to me and I don't have any idea what the fuck its about. I remember Scott opening a journal, but I don't have it with me or anything so I couldn't have posted the thing...

12 comments:

  1. We miss you already Shaun. Come back to run with us anytime alright?

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  2. Hey Shaun I'm glad you liked my cookies and I'm sorry that all of this is real anf that you've had to deal with it for so long. M's told me a couple of stories about you and he but he wont talk to me much about it even now that we're on the road. Do you have any idea how I can get him to open up?

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    1. Holy shit Bondie you shouldn't be involved in all of this. I'm so fucking sorry man. Email me okay?

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  3. Hey, good to hear you're still alive and kicking. Finally out of your whiny funk?

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    1. fuck you.

      haha no, kidding, but not really. oh well?

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  4. Hey you should post on this blog again and let people know you're alive like I do because otherwise we all start to worry!

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    1. Ugh. Fuck, you're probably right dude

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  6. Never stop moving.

    An egg is simple to catch.

    A chicken is not.

    Trust me, you alone have proved even those who are as arrogant as you can live. Thank you.

    - K34

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  7. I hope to see more from Shaun... With Zeke gone and M silent you have more experience than any active blogger.

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    1. Well M isn't gone. Go check Bondie's blog, you'll see he';s still alive and kicking. being a fucking asshole as usual. but thanks. I'll try to get a post up soon.

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